Picking up where I left off 2 months ago....
Heh.
I'll start this entry off with a paraphrased bit of conversation with an old crush from
high school.
[old-crush] Wow so you work as a ******. That must pay well. Now I see why
you have a nice car!
[Black-M] Um... It pays enough to pay the bills.
[old-crush]That and paying for nice dates. I am sure you must have tons and
tons of dates.. [awkward pause]..right?
[Black-M stares blankly] ....not
really no......
[old-crush can't hide her excitement] Oh, That is too
bad! Hey you want to
do something this weekend? We can catch up with each
other more or something!
[Black-M] Maybe, Depends on what I'm doing.....
Anyway I gotta go.
I am sure some people would read that and think "You're so dumb! She totally wanted you and you use to have a crush on her right? You have a chance with her now" Indeed, She was pretty damn transparent. Thing is she is just one of quite a few girls from high school this past year who are started to roll around and all of a sudden start dropping hints and some of them I indeed were attracted to in high school and would ask them out.
Here is where the rant starts. You see it isn't a coincidence that this only started to happen this year. People talk especially over myspace and now that I have my life together and I am making plenty of money. All of a sudden high school girls who rejected me hard 6-7 years are making an effort to come talk to me and very quickly the "lets catch up chat" turns into "I heard you had a crush on me in high school/Remember when you asked me out" to "I just dumped my last boyfriend he was such a jerk" "Hey, You aren't dating anybody right now and neither am I..." Now don't get the wrong idea, This isn't about how they rejected me years before. What gets me is the fact that each one of them are all from the same mold.
They have gained nearly 100 pounds since high school. They all have at least one kid and one had 2 and one more on the way.....Yes, Pregnant with a child and trying to steer the conversation into "dating" after 10 minutes prior telling me the father of her baby on the way is in prison. Not only are they all become fat and already have children. They are all broke, Poor and in debt. Then among the first topic that gets brought up is my job and how much money I am making. Then about how many "jerk" and "loser" men they have been meeting.... Then about what a nice and good guy I was.Then ask about some gossip they heard about my dating habits and a general shakedown on my love life.... Then the flirting starts.
How fucking offensive. When they are broke, When they have lost their attractiveness and they are still living with their parents with their fatherless children. That is when I am finally "desirable" eh? Worse yet, They ALL get offended when I am not jumping at the chance to wine and dine them. I've got quite a few ear fulls of bitching about how I blew them off. A few got it right however. While they were complaining about how much of an asshole I was since I was doing so well and they aren't I must think I am better than they are now. Yes, That was it 100 percent. Why shouldn't I? They decided to mess around with losers the past 5-6 years. Now at the age of 24-25, Their parents are sick of them in their house still. Father of their children are in jail. They don't make enough on welfare/low wage job. Then they feel those same men they looked down on for not being aggressive enough, Attractive enough or just didn't have that charisma 5-6 years ago that their thug boyfriends had. Who instead focused on getting their life together while they sat on the sidelines. When I explain this out their only response was always "Wow so you are bitter." No, That isn't it all. I just know my worth. Not that my worth mattered to these women.
Women who complain about how they only can find "losers" for men only have to look at themselves. They spent their most attractive years chasing after no future thugs then expect "decent" guys to come pick them up after they have been used up. After they have 3 kids by 2 different fathers. After they have become fat. Save them from welfare or a low wage job so they can be lazy at home with a better and bigger house.
No thanks. I'm worth more than that.